this thing with flowers

because life is a lot more fun with long-winded metaphors.

If you know me at all you know that flowers are something that bring me a lot of joy. I purchase a $4 bunch of flowers from H-E-B almost every week for myself and put them in a little glass bottle on our kitchen table. I think I’ll do that for the rest of forever, too. I would count them as another love language for me, they just fill me up to the brim and help me see Jesus more. The more I look at flowers, the more I see us little humans as flowers all growing in a meadow together in this world… let me explain.

When you plant a flower you begin by putting down soil – a necessary foundation. Not only does it help to provide structure for the flower, but it also gives luscious nutrients that help it to grow. We need that kind of foundation, too! But instead of dirt and nitrogen, our foundation is founded upon hope in Jesus Christ, His love, and His Word. If we are not built upon that foundation, then our lives will crumble, and we will not withstand any temptation. There are definitely times in our lives where we fall over, and have to be built back up again, starting with a foundation of capital-T Truth.

After the soil is set, flowers need two things to grow: sunshine and water. That sunshine in our lives is the light of Christ shining in our lives through the blessings that He generously provides to us, completely undeservingly. The sunshine is a representation of those high seasons when you feel really close to Jesus. The water comes in the form of storms in our lives. Hard things come and make us feel like we are being beaten down. The enemy chooses to throw temptations in the way of fulfilling God’s will for us. Storms causes us to rely on our sturdy foundation in order to continue standing up strong. It is the combination of these two things that bring growth into our lives. Without them, we wouldn’t be who God intended for us to be.

It is as we navigate through the sunshine and storms that we start to bloom into our true selves. Now, flowers don’t just become a flower right away, they first grow some leaves, then petals, until they are bloomed in full. I feel like that is how we tend to grow, too, some days faster than others. All in the journey to becoming the beautiful flower that God intended us to be! I like to consider myself a sunflower. Sunflowers grow towards the sun – and I want to grow towards the Son. As we continue to grow, we are becoming closer and closer to Jesus and becoming more like Him.

People pick up flowers and enjoy their beauty. In the same way, we should share about this joy that we have found in Christ! Telling others of the hope and beauty that is found within a relationship with Jesus! We have the ability to show Christ through our actions and give others the desire to want to know more about Him! How exciting it is that He allows us to get to be a part of that?!

“The grass withers and the flowers fall, but the word of our God endures forever.” -Isaiah 40:8

Flowers don’t live forever, and neither do we. But what a hope it is that our God and His Truths do! And one day we will get to live forever with Him too, because of His death and resurrection here on earth, a withering earth. What a peace; what a joy! So I will continue to flourish and grow in His foundation and share with all of those around me over and over for the rest of my time here, because He is my soil foundation that allows for it in the first place. Join me in this meadow and let’s do this thing together, Church!



turning wine back into water

“I have told the glad news of deliverance in the great congregation; behold, I have not restrained my lips, as you know, O Lord. I have not hidden your deliverance within my heart; I have spoken of your faithfulness and your salvation; I have not concealed your steadfast love and your faithfulness from the great congregation.” — Psalm 40:9-10


One of my very favorite stories in the Bible is one that is familiar to many. It comes out of John 2 when Jesus was attending a wedding in Galilee alongside his disciples. They ran out of wine and Jesus had six water jugs (each holding twenty to thirty gallons mind you) filled with water. And then he did the unthinkable, he turned all of the water into wine.

Now this isn’t my favorite story due to my passion for weddings or wine… but because of the last line of the story:

“What Jesus did here in Cana of Galilee was the first of the signs through which he revealed his glory; and his disciples believed in him.” John 2:11

THE FIRST SIGN OF HIS GLORY! The first time that humans saw his power in plain sight. Gosh, what I would give to be an attendant at that wedding! To see water go into a jug and wine come out – what an amazement! Something a human mind cannot capture! I would tell everyone I know, about this “magic trick” of an event that I saw. I would post it on Instagram, Facebook, Snapchat, and Linked In.. I would want every single person I know to understand what I experienced!

A reminder that this was the first of the many, many signs that Jesus used to reveal the glory of God. Within the palm of our hands, we can hold a book that has hundreds of stories just like this one. And he has written hundreds more in my life and yours too. And who am I telling? Not enough people – not even close. See, God is the greatest Author of all time, He has written every single one of our days in His book. And He does BIG things in each of our lives, just like he did when he turned water into wine.

So when we see the glory of God revealed, we should be SHOUTING IT to everyone we know – we should be so zealous about the works of God in our lives that we should share with all of our friends, and strangers too!

When we keep it to ourselves, we are basically turning wine back into water.

We are called to go out and tell people about the glory of God. And it’s easier than ever in this day when we can post on social media and immediately hundreds of people can see it. We have so many opportunities to talk with other people as we go through our day to day. But we become fearful for various reasons: we think people aren’t going to listen, or that they won’t care, we think that what is happening in our lives is not big enough to pay attention to, and so many more lies that we place in our minds. Who are we to say that what God is doing in our lives is not good enough to share?

So I challenge you. I challenge you to share more about what God is doing! Let’s stop turning wine back into water and tell others about the miracles the Lord is doing every single day. People will listen, and their lives may be changed for it. God calls us to go, show, and tell. 

Allll the glory is YOURS, Jesus!

“We are therefore Christ’s ambassadors, as though God were making his appeal through us. We implore you on Christ’s behalf: Be reconciled to God.” -2 Corinthians 5:20



an encouragement from 2018

As we were entering 2019 and I thought back on the past year, I was plagued with the thoughts of the many darknesses that immersed me. I think that 2018 was just a difficult year for myself and for many of my friends, and it was easy to stay focused on the dark times. I was taken aback as I was completely forgetting about all of the blessings and gifts that the Lord had given me and the lessons He had taught me. In this, I thought other people needed to be reminded of this fact too. So, I prayed and prayed, I felt I was to invite others in, and I reached out to some of my friends whose names were placed on my heart. In typical voice memo fashion, I asked if they would share some ways that they vividly saw the Lord work in their lives over the past year. I didn’t give any structure to this and allowed them to share freely what they wanted to share. Because of their willingness and courage, the feedback was more tremendous than I ever imagined. I am so overwhelmed by the power and beauty in their words and stories. So here they are: encouragements that are from people in all different stages of life. Some are long, some are short, some are simple, some are complex. Feel free to read through some or all, but what a celebration it is that these are all backed by the Truth that His goodness shines through the darkest of times.

Enjoy this long post : )






“As I was asked to write about my life recently and what God has been
teaching me, I realized that is a very loaded question. When most twenty-one year
old kids are told that Christmas break is here and you get to go home to spend time
with your family, they’re chomping at the bit to get in their car. I, on the other hand,
have a slight hesitation in my step. This is not because of what I am going home to; I
love my family, my home and all the wonderful lights that greet me in my driveway.
The reason I have a pause when the holidays are mentioned is because of what is
missing from my home, my father. It has almost been two years since my dad’s
death from Leukemia and even though my home will always be my home, it will
never be the same. So as I am called to celebrate Christmas by my faith, my culture
and my family God has placed a different feeling of praise during this time in my life.

Recently I have been reading through the book of Job, which I have actually
been avoiding during my grief because of how close to the subject the writer keeps
it. A story I have heard time and again about how to still praise God during the hard
times, but I don’t think I have ever fully grasped the deeper message in this story,
one that hits home more for me. Job encountered terrible tragedy and death and
even though he still clung to God during this, he was never the same. This is how I
have been feeling since the two years since my daddy went to live with Jesus. The
life I live, the way I feel God’s presence and interact with His people will never be
the same. This became clear early in my reading of Job from one word in verse 20 of
chapter 1, it says that the last thing Job did in his reaction to God’s test is
worshipped. I think in all the times I have read this, I have glossed casually over this
word and painted the image of Job lifting his hands and singing some famous
Christian song as we would do every Sunday during worship time.

I see now because of the pain in my life that worshipping my God has forever
changed for me. The story of Job has shown me that worship is not just happy
dancing with your arms raised and a big circle of friends, but that it is also an
intimate and cherished audience with the King of the universe with you bringing
only your tears and confusion. God has been teaching me that I have walked
THROUGH the valley of the shadow of death, not that I am stuck in it. And now being
on the other side of that valley, I am forever changed. But here’s the thing, I do not
believe that this change only applies to how I feel about heartache and hurt, but
joyous news and passionate relationships. Now my eyes have been opened a little
more in my young age to what change really feels like. Because even though my
father’s death has changed me, it cannot even scrape the power of the change that
occurred in my heart when I said yes to being saved by Jesus. All the changes in our
lives, both bad and good, God uses to shift our eyes to biggest change that there will
ever be, when He changed the ending of our stories from shutting down at the
garden but to being complete at the cross. My dad’s death may have changed my
temporary home, but Jesus’ death and resurrection has changed my life for eternity.”



“There is one word that has been a common thread in my prayers this past year: enough. Smart-enough. Captivating-enough. Interesting-enough. Christian-enough. Beautiful-enough. Struggling with “enoughness” convinces you that you’re falling short in everything it touches, like you can never get a breath of fresh air. I never felt like I was enough for my friends, for family, for myself, for Jesus. And my God it is exhausting. I sought out all sorts of things to make me feel complete, unknowingly digging the gap deeper and adding extra “checkpoints” to measure myself by.

The enemy was so cunning and clever in this — he took hold of my heart for community and began to chip at it. He reversed the success of the ones I love into the feeling of my own failure. The job offers, the coffee dates, the sweet things the Lord was teaching them in their time with Him — their gains all felt like my own loss. And this is what pulled me away. He told me to remove myself — the less I was around them, the less opportunities for comparison, less moments to feel less than. And my fickle heart believed it. I hid myself away and put a wedge between myself and the ones I love.

This lie carved so much distance between me and Jesus. I could never understand His love for me, I couldn’t grasp it. I didn’t feel like there was any reason for me to be deserving of it. I knew the truth of His nearness, but He felt so, so far. Not feeling like I was enough convinced me of the false reality was I wasn’t enough to be loved. I wanted to feel worthy enough of what I knew Jesus was so freely wanting to give me.

I hit a breaking point where I couldn’t pretend anymore, and I spilled out my heart to my best friend. She listened intently, she literally wiped my tears as she spoke so much truth over me. This moment broke chains for me — I learned the Lord’s intention in community — and I felt Him begin to shift the posture of my heart. 

I wish I could sit here and write about how easy it is now, but that simply isn’t true. I’m in a season where my heart is looking to its muscle memory — still striving to be enough and looking to other things to make me feel complete. I am consistently forgetful of who He keeps reminding me I am — I am a daughter of the King, I am redeemed, I am worthy to be loved (better yet, I cannot grasp how much I am loved!!). Not only has He reminded me of who He has made me to be, but He has sweetly and patiently helped me unpack the baggage. Healing doesn’t happen overnight, but He so kindly sits with me, time and time again, and is freely handing me His love and grace in my moments of brokenness.  And that is the beauty of this reality — am I worthy of this love, to be loved? No. I am a broken, hurtful, searching child who doesn’t grasp the weight of my Father’s love. But man, am I loved more than I can grasp or ever deserve. Jesus came down to our broken world, stepping into flesh and suffering the pain from my sins. And because of Him, I can step into His shoes and be enough.

Sometimes shaping comes in the form of suffering. There are seasons of faith that are really hard, but there is peace in knowing He is nearer than you know and He is molding you to be more like Him.

“And I pray that you, being rooted and empowered in love, may have power, together will all the Lord’s holy people, to grasp how wide & long & high & deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge — that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God” -Ephesians 4:17-19

“The Lord your God is in your midst,  A mighty One who will save; He will rejoice over you in gladness; He will quiet you with His love; He will exult over you with loud singing” -Zephaniah 3:17″



“What has been the most painful year of my life has simultaneously been the most beautiful. In February of 2018, my husband and I found out we were going to have a baby, and quite honestly, I was terrified. I was 21 at the time. I was still in college. This was not our plan for right now. (Funny how our plans work out). About halfway through the year, I felt that God was giving me a characteristic of Him to focus on.

His faithfulness.

He kept reminding me this word through scripture and worship songs. At the time, I was believing that He would be faithful to provide a home for us because we would soon be moving out of our apartment. I was believing that He would be faithful to provide for us financially. I was believing that He would be faithful to give us strength in parenthood and prepare us where we lacked. I was believing that he would USE this pregnancy and the timing of it all for His glory. My pregnancy was perfect and truly enjoyable. We loved this baby.

It was the most beautiful thing I had ever experienced, but at 39 weeks we found out our baby no longer had a heartbeat. We discovered later that our sweet baby passed due to a triple wrapped umbilical cord. These days were painfully hard and my whole being ached for this child, as it still does. After a week or so had passed, we began to try to settle into our uncomfortable new reality.

That’s when God reminded me of that word again. That one word that seemed a lot easier to believe in when I was just a little uncertain of the future. Faithful. That my God is faithful even now. He was faithful on October 16th when we delivered our stillborn baby. He has been faithful to fulfill his promises from the beginning of time and He will continue to do so until the end. I am STILL believing that he will use this pregnancy for His glory and that he has mighty plans for our baby’s life.

I have learned multitudes this year, and in ways I would have never chosen, but I know that my God keeps His promises. I know that God does not leave my side and He is always with me. When the doctor’s told us that there was no longer a heartbeat, I imagined Him sitting on the hospital bed with my husband and I, grieving with us. He knows this pain. Though I wish I was a mother to a baby here on earth and I long to fulfill that purpose again one day, I have more fully understood that my FIRST purpose is being God’s vessel here. I have experienced on a new level just how broken and unfair the world can be and I yearn for heaven in a way I never have before. And I really am grateful for that. The days are still hard and we are still in the valley of this, but my soul has hope and truly knows that God is good. I will see and hold my baby again in a perfect heaven!

Great is thy Faithfulness!”



“At the beginning of year, I was feeling great but my identity was in different things than the Lord. I misplaced my identity in idolizing a boy, my body, and my grades and positions. As the semester continued, everything that I was proud of myself for or found my joy in did not last (because they are NOT eternal). It ended up that the boy burned me, I started gaining a lot of weight, and started failing classes. In this time of my life, anxiety crept in bad. I felt hopeless and in a hole, I was running from activity to activity so that I didn’t have to deal with everything that was flopping in my life/the emotions I was feeling. This led to even more anxiety because it caused things to get even worse. I sunk deep into this hole and by the end of the semester I had zero hope and felt very depressed and anxious. During this period, I had not felt the Holy Spirit in a long time. I was at a girls night for Breakaway and that is where the Spirit wrecked my heart. I got home and in my brokenness cried out to the Lord begging and asking of Him to help me understand why I was feeling so sad. The Lord told me to read Lamentations 3:17-23. It talks about being broken of sin but how the Lord is still faithful. The Lord spoke to me that I needed to use my upcoming summer to get myself back in order and soak in time with Him. This is NOT what I wanted to do, I saw this as lame, being a loser, or not being “successful”. That summer was one of obedience, restoration, healing, and growth. It was difficult staying home in a restful home environment. But I started going to counseling and the Lord WORKED in my life!!! I fell back in love with the Lord, worked through old hurts that weren’t completely healed, had cool conversations with my family about God, restored my identity in the Lord and Him speaking to me of who I was in Him. I was able to restore my grades and restore my heart. Coming out of that summer, I felt confident in Christ because I knew my identity. It was the most joyful semester filled with opportunity and peace knowing how the Lord had been faithful in the past and how He will be faithful in the future!”



“The Answer to My Semester

2018. Twenty – Eighteen. Two thousand eighteen. 2. 0. 1. 8. The year of my life that brought me exceeding comfort, fullness of joy & life in Christ.
I’m just going to lay it out there, my Fall 2018 semester was extremely difficult for me. I only had class on Tuesday & Thursday – every college kid’s dream. It turns out that this schedule did not work for me.

With all this newfound time on my hands, I thought it would be the perfect opportunity to apply for new organizations. I desired to have an answer to the age-old question, “What are you involved in?” You see, I fell into the lie that as a college student, I must be involved in organizations to be fully known. Before continuing, let me caveat this by saying that organizations are a phenomenal opportunity for people to find community and grow in fellowship with others. For me, Fall 2018 was not a semester where I needed more organizations to fill my time. The answer to Fall 2018 was Jesus. I walked into the Fall semester full of pride. People recognized what great things I was accomplishing in this season of life. In that time, it became all about what I was doing, and not about what Jesus was doing in and through me.
Upon moving back to College Station, I neglected my pursuit of Jesus. I felt as though the spiritual high I had experienced over the summer could carry me. I became complacent in my walk with the Lord. This lie was something that Satan used to pull me away from the truth we find in scripture. For the first month of the semester, I found it difficult to get into the Word. In this time, I started battling lies that I thought were completely behind me. I became frustrated that I was battling all of these old struggles. I began questioning God; however because of my pride I was not letting anyone know these thoughts and feelings.
In this time, I learned that God has a funny sense of humor. You see, God works in His timing—not our own. Remember that organization I said I applied for? I did not get in. That single situation completely flipped my semester upside down. My first thought upon hearing this news was “Ok Lord, I know you are sovereign, I know that everything is in your timing—but are you kidding me? What am I going to do with all this time on my hands?”. At this point it was already October, and the semester was half way over. I was still keeping things in. I was vocalizing my frustrations to the Lord; yet, I had so many people around me who knew nothing about the struggles I was facing. In that moment of despair & frustration, God brought a faithful friend alongside me for this journey. We sat in the car for 2 hours one night and I just let all the frustrations out, It was incredible to see how God used a faithful friend to remind me that my identity is in Christ and not the lies that Satan wants me to believe. He challenged me to combat lies with truth, to press into the word, and to not let my deceptive feelings rule my time with the Lord.
This fall semester I struggled with feeling alone. I had to fight to have healthy alone time. I battled spiritual warfare this semester. Each morning I had to wake up and choose to pursue Jesus, to take my thoughts captive, to recognize the lies and to combat them with truth. Most of my mornings for the rest of the semester were spent alone at coffee shops for 5-6 hours as I battled lies and spoke truth over myself. This semester the Lord had my best in mind—just as he always does. He used this semester to teach me what it looked like to be completely satisfied in Jesus instead of seeking satisfaction from people.
What I thought was the answer to my semester was not. My answer was to become completely captivated by Jesus in the midst of suffering. I learned this semester what it looks like to suffer for the sake of Christ. The Lord used scripture to transform my heart and realize the fruitfulness of this season. The passage that was at the forefront of my mind this semester was Philippians 3:7-11 “7 But whatever gain I had, I counted as loss for the sake of Christ. 8 Indeed, I count everything as loss because of the surpassing worth of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord. For his sake I have suffered the loss of all things and count them as rubbish, in order that I may gain Christ 9 and be found in him, not having a righteousness of my own that comes from the law, but that which comes through faith in Christ, the righteousness from God that depends on faith— 10 that I may know him and the power of his resurrection, and may share his sufferings, becoming like him in his death.” These verses vividly depict how we are called to live.  that —whatever gain we may have that we would count it as loss for the sake of knowing Jesus more. The Lord taught me that there is nothing more in this life that matters than knowing Jesus and having a relationship with Him.
This semester I spent a lot of time alone, and I truly came to know what it looked like to be completely satisfied in Jesus. I learned that through moments of suffering and frustration I am being refined as I begin to more fully reflect the character of Christ. In those moments it is key to remember that He is right beside you walking through every single second of your day. It dawned on me this semester that in moments of silence or in the midst of the chaos, that Jesus is still the same, and He is not changing. He taught me that in the midst of suffering, He is there with me, He taught me that in any situation I can be content because of who He is and the sacrifices that He made so that I may live life abundantly.
My prayer is that no matter what season you are walking through at this moment that you would be able to step away and recognize that the Creator fully knows you, fully sees you, and is fully walking with you. This perspective has the ability to completely change the way that you live out your walk with the Lord—just as it did mine.

Thank you, Jesus, for being the answer to my semester.”



“As I look back on this past year, trying to put words to experiences that sometimes cannot be formulated on this side of eternity – my fingers keep coming back to the keys that construct the phrase “He was in the midst.” It may sound vague, it may not even make sense, but through the triumphs of this year as well as the days met with tears and heartache, I have seen the Spirit of God move in ways that can only point back to his faithfulness, beauty and grace. Though Jesus has been in the midst of all three hundred and sixty-five days of this year, there are three specific time periods, which revealed his presence ever more tangibly.

The first of these three points brings me back to March of this past year, as I packed my bags and headed to a place that has grown to feel like a home. Nicoya, Costa Rica – the city that Jesus used to soften and transform my heart seven years ago.  I had no intentions of being on this trip, because financially I did not think it was going to be possible, but little did I know that Jesus had such different plans. Through his power, he was able to do it – from the start; I could see that He was in the midst, even in fundraising. As we made it to Costa Rica, my hands were forced open as we walked into a week with little planned ahead. Little did I know, that this exact openhandedness is what allowed the presence of God to manifest itself in the moments that came from the unplanned and unexpected. One of these favorite moments occurred in the middle of the week, as our mission team had plans to hold a community soccer game with the youth and people of the city. We headed by bus to the soccer fields but our plans were halted as another group of people were using the fields we had planned on using. Instead of throwing away our plan completely, we invited the youth and people from the community on the bus with us, and embarked on a journey to find a new soccer field. For at least 30 minutes, our bus driver drove through small villages, dirt roads, and left us passengers confused at his intentions. As the sun began to sink, my heart did also, believing that we were running out of light and time. Yet just as my heart fell from doubt, it was met with wonder as the bus pulled around the final village road into the most beautiful field I had ever seen. The kids ran out of the bus and began playing soccer, dancing around, and picking the fruit off of the trees. I can still see it now, the golden hour hitting the faces of the children that had changed my life seven years prior, their joy and giggles flooding my soul, and in that moment it was as if the spirit of heaven and earth meshed together and I came face to face with a piece of eternity. As I watched the community dance, laugh and play I was reminded of Our Father’s childlike heart, his glorious kingdom and just how present He is – even in the midst of a community soccer game.

            A few months after leaving Costa Rica, I turned on to County Rd 414 and entered the gates of TBarM Camp Travis for the summer. I had spent two summers at this place prior, but this was my first full summer, as well as my first time being a photographer. I still remember the nerves I felt as campers came the first day, worrying if the lighting was correct in a photo, if the battery was charged, or if the lens was the right one – little did I know that through that camera lens I would come face to face with the Spirit of God. I remember the first time it happened like it was yesterday. For those that don’t know much about Camp Travis, every week they hold a race on Wednesdays, which campers compete in around the entire property and end at a finish line at the heart of camp. My previous two summers, I had always enjoyed seeing the faces of my campers run across the finish line, most often hand in hand cheering each other on. I thought that I knew the beauty of that finish line, but it wasn’t until I stood firmly behind the finish line as photographer – capturing every single human that crossed the line, cheered a friend on, or ran alongside them that I was met with the utter joy of running home. As I would sit at my desk every Wednesday evening, editing and sorting through the photos from the day, tears would stream down my face. These tears were in response to the words that The Holy Spirit would speak through the images, the words of,  “this is what you- yes YOU, my daughter look like as you limp homeward towards your Heavenly Father.” By the middle of the summer, through exhaustion and the process of editing becoming more mundane, I found myself losing the wonder of the photos. I became more focused on the lighting or quality of the photo rather than the story that Jesus was trying to speak to me. It took me going away for a week to Canada, to remind my heart that God didn’t bring me to Camp Travis as the photographer because I was a professional (because I surely am not), he brought me because he wanted to teach me how to be still, get away, and listen for his voice. I can still hear his voice, reminding me that he’s been there all along, in the photos, in the tiny creatures, in the people I was surrounded with. Overall, camp was hard; it was really hard – because I’m a human that was bound to fail, and man, hear it from me first – I Failed. I failed my co-leader, I failed my co-workers, and I failed my boss even – yet through it all, I was reminded that the Lord is full of INSTEADS that flip the mundane and dead to give us LIFE and fullness of His Spirit. My summer at camp reminded me that he gives us a new name, a new song, and calls us to listen ever so closely for his voice, because as he speaks we can remind ourselves of the veil that was torn in order for this side of eternity to collide with next.

The third point that I think of when I look back on this year, is actually a season that I am still currently walking in, which is a season of engagement. It’s taken me the longest to put this part to words because honestly, engagement is kind of hard. It is beautiful. It is a gift. But, it is also hard. Beautifully hard. I still remember meeting my fiance a little less than 6 years ago, and knowing that there was something special about his heart. Little did I know, that a random guy from a mission trip meeting would one day be the man who I choose to do life with forever! My heart smiles at the thought of JUST how faithful our Heavenly Father is for orchestrating such a thing. Fast forward to April 8, 2018 – when he got down on one knee and asked me to be his wife! I always assumed that in that very moment I would be hysterically weeping, but it honestly did not hit me until later that day, when I sat awestruck thinking of high school me who believed that relationships with guys and lust could fill the void in her heart- and that INSTEAD of that, Jesus was standing in front of me giving me a double portion. Instead of any shame or fear that I once wore on my sleeves, I was met with grace and freedom that is only found in knowing Jesus! All summer I had the joy of getting to speak to girls about “the power of instead,” found in Isaiah 61, during the year of the Lord’s favor,

“I will give them a beautiful headdress instead of ashes (Isaiah 61:3)”, and “instead of your shame there shall be a double portion”(Isaiah 61:7).

Getting to speak about the double portion that The Lord had given to me through my relationship was such a gift, and has continued to reveal just how loving the heart of the Father truly is! After returning to school, I have continued to remember the power of instead that is found in this season of engagement, but have been met with many instances of my humanity. I begin to forget His promises, and focus on the sinful nature of my fiance and myself. Through struggling with being fallen in nature, and doing life so closely to another human- I continue to be reminded that he is going to fail me and I am going to fail him. My head and heart continue the struggle of connecting that the only thing that will ever fill the void in my heart is the love, grace and joy of a relationship with Jesus Christ! It has revealed the need I have for forgiveness, grace and Jesus. But- alongside the four-letter word of hard is a ten-letter word, which reads beautifully. Throughout the refinement of this season, the Spirit has fully been in the midst of this process towards marriage, reminding me of the gospel day in and day out, which has transformed it to be utterly beautiful.

So, overall the past year has been just that, beautifully hard. Yet, in that- He was in the midst. Yes, it’s hard leaving Costa Rica every visit, summer camp is filled with imperfect humans, and engagement brings you closer in intimacy with someone who is going to fail you. BUT- I get giddy every time I see a pink flower in HEB, because it really just reminds me of the hundreds of vibrant blooms down some of my favorite Nicoya streets, I get teary eyed thinking of the campers that ran through the finish line of a race at camp as if they were running into the gates of heaven, and I am filled with the utmost joy when I think about getting to worship our Savior, start a family, and pursue passions with my best friend. 2018, thank you for revealing the character of Jesus more and more, and I pray that 2019 is full of even more of his love!”




As for me, well, I was beaten down and built back up repeatedly this year and one of the things that the Lord did in me that wrecked me the most was learning about wheat. Sounds silly, but seriously cool to think about! In Luke 22, Jesus says, “Simon, Simon, Satan has asked to sift you all as wheat.” When I read this one day in October, I was like “Wait what? Satan asked you that??” and then as I continued to think about it, I realized that Jesus allows Satan to sift us. I wondered why He doesn’t choose to stop it because He is much more powerful and I mean He loves me doesn’t He???? But then I realized that God never lets the enemy to have full control because what the enemy means for evil, God means for good. He lets these things happen because it allows us so grow, learn, and build. It is one of the hugest acts of love that He can give to us actually. So wild to think that even in the midst of darkness and Satan trying to get us, God knows exactly what He is doing and has a rein on all that is going on. Jesus continues to Simon, “But I have prayed for you, that your faith may not fail.” Difficult times come, the enemy attacks, but Jesus wins. He always wins.



I want to give a shout out to all of the incredible humans that I get to be friends with that shared a little something about their lives — I am so honored to even know each of you — thank you so very much for buying into my crazy idea and making it truly come to life. You are SO loved!

I hope that you were able to get a little something out of this post. I pray that whoever is reading this walks away feeling encouraged and spurred on due to the miraculous things that the Lord did this past year. I challenge you to take some time to reflect for yourself and that you will be reminded of ways that you saw the Lord vividly in your own life.

2018 was a memorable year. He is so stinkin’ good.

and he shall be named Jesus

For to us a child is born,
    to us a son is given,
    and the government will be on his shoulders.
And he will be called
    Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God,
    Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace.

-Isaiah 9:6


The time leading up to Christmas is always sort of hectic for me; a lot of bustling around shopping for gifts, cooking, baking, and trying to catch up with hometown friends and family. It is definitely a time that is not necessarily relaxing, but ultimately fulfilling. I always tend to remember the true reason for the season, but this year has felt different as I have started to fully grasp what this time means for us. The weight of this season is much more than we give it credit for.

You see, Jesus fulfilled a promise that was talked about for thousands of years! For the people then, it was a huge deal, and it should still be a huge deal to us today. Jesus came and lived on Earth. He willingly left his warm, comfortable place in Heaven to come and live in this broken world. Christmas marks the starting line of the most humble journey any human being has ever endured. The Son of God humbled himself to come into the world as a baby; the human’s most helpless life stage. Babies cannot do anything for themselves, they need someone to do physically everything for them. The Son of God simply let that happen.

He then lived 33 years of life on Earth. He went through being a toddler, child, teenager, young adult, and adult on Earth. Our broken, broken earth among the people He came to save. He went through every life stage that we did. The difference is, is that He lived them free from sin. Flawless, pure, perfect. He was faced with every temptation that we are, saw every difficult thing that we see today.

The reason for this was to fulfill God’s perfect sacrifice so that we could be saved, but I can’t help but see an even larger purpose to it (not surprising with His intricacy). The main goal was for Jesus to come and to die for us, but He also came to live with us to be able to say “Hey, I’ve been there, I’ve seen it, and I can tell you that you can get through this with me.” It’s a lot easier to believe what someone says if they’ve experienced the situation before, ya know? It allows us to see, to hear, to understand who Christ is and what He has come to do. It is one of the greatest and truest acts of love ever seen.

With today being Christmas, we get to celebrate Jesus being with us! Leaving His comfy right hand to live in the midst of darkness, hurt, and sin. So what can we do now? Well, I think it’s important to live a lot like Him. To put in more effort to love harder, give more, and think of ourselves less. I hope that we are reminded of the weight this event – that we take time to see that there are times we can choose to be uncomfortable because He deserves it. I hope that we choose to tell more people about Him; to invite others into the deep love that we are so undeserving of yet are given anyways. I hope that we praise Him in every single thing that we do, what He is so worthy of.

Emmanuel! God with us! He shall reign forevermore!


One of my favorite people passed this along to me, and I recommend listening to it:


Merry Christmas 🙂



(rĭ-lī′) intr.v.

1. To be dependent for support, help, or supply

This word has been etched on my heart over the last few months. As I have over and over again had to fully rely of the strength of the Lord to get me through. I thought I knew what this word meant, but I have come to truly understand the bountiful beauty that comes from relying. Moments where you have no where else to turn but to the one who has had His arms open the whole time.

Going into the past semester, I said some bold prayers that God would completely break me down to my lowest in order to be built back up. It turns out He listened, and in the process I learned a huge lesson.

So, this life we are living is hard. There are hardships, tragedy, and pain. Things do not always go to plan. We have obstacles and challenges. And I get hard-headed. I think I can do it all on my own and that I don’t need any help, I am slow to ask for it, as well. God had been throwing me out of my comfort zone and forcing me to live in that foreign place. I would try to take on these challenges on my own. I would rev up ALL of my own strength (which is honestly pea-sized compared to His power), and over and over again I would come up short. It was unbearably frustrating. And I still would not go to Him. My pride was a wall that I had built brick by brick with my small successes. I even went to other people first. I thought, “My mere humanity can’t handle this but I bet multiple mere humans can!” I was wrong, again. Failure, again. Still, the wall was built, and I wasn’t going to knock it down anytime soon. It didn’t stop, God kept throwing things at me that I wasn’t ready for and didn’t feel equipped for and I couldn’t handle it. God was like a wrecking ball to my built up wall of pride and He demolished it. I was completely beaten down, with nothing else to give.

Hmm, just what I had prayed for.

God answered my prayers before my very eyes.

And it wasn’t great.

God was doing what He does best, yet I was still feeling weak. This wasn’t how answered prayers are supposed to feel right? And that’s when I realized that God is number one in the business of molding hearts but that doesn’t necessarily mean that the molding process is the easiest. And sometimes God places us in some valleys to prepare us for the mountains that He has sown out for us; we just have to be willing to climb.

I realized that God doesn’t just answer prayers and then everything just falls into place, you have to work and pray and not hold back; He deserves it, anyways.

It wasn’t until I dropped my pride and everything of my own ability and fully leaned on Him that I felt actual peace. A peace that goes beyond any comprehension, one of those things that you only know the feeling if you’ve experienced it. It was like a trust fall. Falling back with zero control, placing my control in the only one who had the ability to catch me. And he caught me right before I hit the ground. I saw what it truly meant to rely. To give everything to the only source that had enough strength to lift me through. This reliance required work. It wasn’t something simple, it was something that was a challenge, because so often I wanted to do it on my own. It took spending time with God, getting to know him well, praying vulnerably and honestly with Him, and knowing the Truths He has for me, believing them to be completely true.

And what a sweeeet, sweet place that was. To be in the hands of the One who made me. He sought me out, pulled me in, and walked alongside me. He made me work, He called me beloved. A Father and His Child. And I pray that you can feel that feeling too. So, let’s release the grip on that pride we so stubbornly hold onto and let’s free fall into the abyss of His wild love.

I remember the days…

This is a post written on raw emotion. My heart is with those who may be grieving.

I remember the days. The days where the only tragedy that I knew about was 9/11 and it was such a shock to our country that nothing as bad as that would happen again.

I remember hearing about the Columbine shootings and thinking to myself, so young and naive, that something like that was crazy and I would never see anything like that.

I remember the Aurora movie theater shooting. The days I was terrified to go to the movies with friends. I was old enough to realize that this stuff was real, and that there were people out there that don’t want to do good. It was a reality check.

I remember, later the same year, the Sandy Hook shooting. I remember my heart aching that day as I stood in disbelief that someone would shoot innocent children and teachers. I remembered all of the “potential intruder lock down drills” I did when I was younger, never thinking anyone would have to actually use them. I remember being confused.

I remember when these were a few of the small number of massacres that we knew about and the whole country mourned thinking this would never happen again.

But it didn’t stop.

I remember the days when I didn’t have to worry about going to any major event without fear that something tragic may happen.

In 2017 alone, there were 378 mass shootings in the United States. 2 of the 5 deadliest mass shootings in modern US history have been within the past 4 months. The numbers of people dead and injured are gut-wrenching.

I remember Las Vegas last October, thinking that this was getting out of hand. I was just saddened thinking about the evil that lives in the world that we live in. Still thinking, there’s no way this could happen close to me. They all just seemed too far.

I remember a few months ago when there was a mass shooting in San Antonio. This one hit close to home. Literally. The shooter was from my home town just down the road. I probably was in the same room as him at some point growing up. This put it into perspective, that I am not immune to these tragedies and that they can happen to anyone. We are not too small for this to happen to us.

This time I wasn’t only sad, I was straight-up angry. I broke.

How could people be so selfish and heartless and kill innocent people? How can people do these horrific acts? What is going through their head? I wanted to scream. I am tired of this being a “normal” thing we hear on the news. I’m outraged that this world is such a darkened and broken place and that we have to live in it, so dangerous. I am distraught that it isn’t getting any better and that we can’t just hide from it and run away. I don’t like this world.

But then I completely stopped myself.

Because, thankfully, we have a hope.

A hope that is far greater than any of this evil.

“He will wipe away every tear from their eyes, and death shall be no more, neither shall there be mourning, nor crying, nor pain anymore, for the former things have passed away.”
-Revelation 21:4

Our God is one of everlasting power, joy and love. And one day He is coming back, and we will reunite with Him. And if our time on earth is up before then, we will get to be with Him in Heaven, the most glorious of places.

“For this light momentary affliction is preparing for us an eternal weight of glory beyond all comparison.” -2 Corinthians 4:17

So I sit and dwell on this hope that we have. That this evil is of no comparison to the light that we will encounter someday. The weight I am feeling from this loss is minuscule to the GLORY that I will be feeling one day. That we cannot live in fear or we will be unable to reach those who don’t know what this hope is. I sit and wonder why we don’t share this hope with others more frequently. I feel convicted, convicted that I don’t reach out enough. What if I WAS in the same room as that shooter a long time ago and I was too caught up in my own world to reach out and tell him about the glory that is found in Jesus? And with that, it isn’t us but it is Jesus who SAVES, and He calls us to help him be a part of that! And who am I to not do what He has called us to do and to do it to my fullest?

I also felt convicted of the hate and anger that I was feeling because the Truth is, is that God loves those shooters just as much as He loves you and me. He loves them unconditionally, despite shortcomings. We sin too, our sin is the same. It is next to impossible to wrap my mind around that kind of love, but man, it truly is beautiful. That is just the depth, width, and power of the love of the Lord. We are called to love like He loves, so with that, we are called to love the shooter too. We may not understand why they have done the things that they have done, but we should love them anyways. And we may never understand it, because sometimes it is beyond their own comprehension, too. Our brains work in really crazy ways, and sometimes disorders completely overtake our thoughts and make us act irrationally. It’s a real thing and we as humans are imperfect, and we always will be.

So I cling tight to this hope. Hope that He will wipe away my tears and death will just be a memory. I remind myself of it often. He is coming back!! It is the sweetest to look forward to. So, let us love others well, no matter who they are. Let us be bold and share who Christ is through our words and actions, and let us love the shooters. May we not simply live in the world and go through each day, but let us be ALIVE in the world and work to our fullest in every moment.

Here I Raise My Ebenezer

The common phrase you hear in a familiar hymn. We’ve sung it out in worship a million times, but do we truly understand what it means? It is a phrase of praise, yes, but it is honestly so much more than just that.

I am fearful. I get scared easily. God places me in situations that I don’t feel equipped for and that I don’t think that I can get through. When I’m in the midst of these times I let the enemy’s lies of unworthiness and comparison creep into the depths of my mind and I lie down, defeated by my own thoughts. I then seek out my loving and faithful heavenly Father, crying out for a piece of hope. He provides. He shows me His never-ending goodness. He shows me His faithfulness. He pulls me out of the slimy pit of lies and points me to His Truth. The Truth of His holiness and redemption. The God of the Universe takes time to take care of and comfort little, small me. He shows me a glimmer of hope. Time and time again I find myself in this situation, broken down to be built back up. And He never hesitates to do it over and over again.

Time and time again I find myself in this situation, broken down to be built back up. And He never hesitates to do it over and over again. I am reminded of the hope that He brings to me. I raise my Ebenezer.

In 1 Samuel 7, the Israelites are in war with the Philistines and, because of Samuel, all of the Israelites have committed themselves to the Lord, our God. The Philistines hear that Israel has all gathered together, they went to attack them. The Israelites were drowned in fear, afraid of what was going to happen. Samuel continues to cry out to the Lord to help the Israelites and sacrificed a lamb. The Lord listened and responded by sending loud thunder onto the Philistines while they were en route to attack. This put them in panic, and allowed for the Israelites to take over attack them. Israel defeated the Philistines and there was peace. Samuel, who has become a leader of the Israelites during this time, takes a stone and named it Ebenezer, meaning stone of help, to be reminded of what the Lord did for them.

That is the background of this phrase. When we sing, “here I raise my Ebenezer”, we are acknowledging the blessings that God has given us and reminded that He is always there, no matter how far we run from Him, with open arms ready to embrace us as His beloved child. It is a symbol of help and of hope, of the constant faithfulness of our Maker. The ultimate planner of our lives and the one who has blessed us immensely.

I still get scared, it is human nature, when I find myself in a moment where I feel helpless. But it is in this that I am reminded of my Ebenezer, my stone of help. The only kind of help that can completely solve our problems, help from the Lord. I challenge you, to find your Ebenezer, whether that be a building you pass every day, an item you keep on your bedside table, your bible, something in your car, whatever it may be! Pick something and remember that it is your Ebenezer. When you see it, you can be reminded of the times you have been at your lowest, and how God pulled you back to the top. You are reminded of the multitude of blessings that He has provided for you and all of the difficult times that He has gotten you through. A symbol of help and of hope.

The next time you sing this song of praise, you can see the amazing meaning it truly has. It is a phrase of praise, worship, revitalization, redemption, peace, holiness, joy, and hope.

Here I raise my Ebenezer. Thank you, Jesus.

Chasing HIM Before Him

Originally posted on

The chase. Everyone has gone through it. You meet someone who turns your world upside down. Then comes the texts, likes, favorites, and trying to do whatever we can for them to notice us. We are constantly on a chase. A chase for fulfillment, a chase for desire, a chase for someone. The funny thing is, we should be chasing someone much larger than life itself, someone that is the ultimate fulfiller, the life-giver, the one who desires and loves us more than we could ever possibly imagine.

Our society has high expectations of what a relationship should be like, including extravagant gifts, #wcw, #mcm, and being “relationship goals”. We chase after these labels like it’s the only way our relationship can be at it’s fullest. The part that is usually left out is how the relationship grows towards Jesus. It is so utterly important, living water for us to thrive in. We look for satisfaction in the arms of someone else when we are already wrapped in the arms of someone so much bigger who loves us so unconditionally that we should be not just simply satisfied, but overly rejoiced.

I know what you are thinking, this is a lot easier said than done. Trust me, I am completely with you on that. I’ve been single for about two years now, and I have found myself confused and angry with God as to why it seems everyone has their perfect relationships, and I am still alone. I, too, have struggled with searching for acceptance and approval of other people, not being satisfied with just the love of God. But I’ve realized He does this for a reason. You see, we really need to have our relationship right with Godbefore we can have it right with somebody else. Once you feel the immense love of God and see the promises He has for us, you’ll never question if it is enough again. My mom once told me that you should chase after God with all that you have and the person that can keep up, well, that’s the one you should pursue. It is hard to be patient for this relationship, but it’s so true. The two of you should be chasing so hard after the Lord, and when you’re able to do that alongside each other, now that’s where you should be.

So, evaluate yourself. Who are you chasing? Are you chasing the approval and satisfaction of somebody else? Or are you chasing after the Lord with all your heart? And when you find that man after Christ or woman of God that is chasing after HIM just as hard as you are, then grab them why you can and keep up. The real “relationship goals” is to help make each other a better model of Christ and bring them closer to our Father in heaven. Be their number one fan and supporter in fulfilling God’s purpose for their life. Don’t get too wrapped up in all the labels. Appreciate that person because they want to love you well and love Christ well too. Be at peace with the fact that one day it will not anymore be “who am chasing” but “who are WE chasing”. Keep on running.

 “Am I now trying to win the approval of human beings, or of God? Or am I trying to please people? If I were still trying to please people, I would not be a servant of Christ.” Galations 1:10



There is a growling in my heart. A yearning for fulfillment. A want for more. I am weak. I need more. I am not hungry. I am starving. Starving for Jesus.

Think about the number of times throughout the day where we think to ourselves, man I’m hungry. And so we easily go grab a snack from the kitchen and go on: full. But how often throughout the day do we think to ourselves, man I’m hungry for Jesus? And then easily go open our Bibles and eat up the abundance of food that the Lord has for us? And the crazy thing is, is that the food supply from Jesus is endless and unlimited, we’re just too caught up in our daily lives to realize it. The tough part about it all though, is sometimes even when you’ve eaten some of it, you don’t always feel full.

I’ve been stuck in this stagnant place where I am very happy and content with life lately, where I haven’t really had to depend on God that much. Even though there has been blessings, I have found myself still. This word is so hard to grasp: being still. And in all honesty I don’t like it at all. If you’re anything like me, we want to constantly be pushed or challenged by God and when that doesn’t happen it’s a phase of “well what do I do now?” It’s a frustrating place to be, but now I’m starting to figure it out.

I’m starting to enjoy this, this concept of being “still”. I’m learning to appreciate it, because I know that soon one day God is going to completely ROCK. MY. WORLD. And He will do that in His time. I am a stress-er and planner through and through, but I am learning to kind of let life do it’s thing for a while, and I have to tell you it’s a pretty relaxing feeling. I’m learning to trust more in what God is doing, because I’m sure He is cooking up something great for my life, it just isn’t time yet. I’m learning to be present in what is happening right now, and not worry about all that is to come. I’m learning to not get so wrapped up in homework, social media, and school, and just roll with the punches, because it’s going to work out, it always does. I’m learning to be happy with this whole “being still” thing, and really appreciating the little blessings that God provides each and every day. I’m learning to love better, be more intentional, and share Jesus in a whole new way.

So, I’m being patient (for once in my life), and just waiting for the Lord to guide my paths. Instead of getting frustrated in these stagnant times, take them as a blessing and learn from them, because there’s a reason God wants you to experience it. I am hungry but I am patient, and I can’t wait to see the ways the Lord is going to feed me.

Psalm 63:1 O God, You are my God; I shall seek You earnestly; My soul thirsts for You, my flesh yearns for You, In a dry and weary land where there is no water.

And just like that,

One down, seven to go. My first semester of college flew by in the blink of an eye but holy moly it has been one of the best rides I’ve ever been on! Time flies, but maybe that’s where we learn to appreciate every little thing more. Here’s a few of the most important lessons of my life that were jam packed into a few short months…

Grades don’t define you, seriously.

Constantly we are pressured and identified by the grades we get, the GPA we have, and the classes we take. But our identity does not lie in how well you did on that chemistry test. Our identity can only be defined by the one who created us, and that is what is most important. When we get to heaven one day, our grades aren’t going to matter, it’s the way that we lived for HIM.

But you still have to take school seriously and make it a priority.

In high school, it was easy to blow off studying or that homework assignment to do later, but in college it isn’t that easy. Getting behind is the worst thing you can do, and studying one night for a test is not going to cut it if you want to be prepared. There is always something fun going on, but sometimes you have to stay in, you are at college for a degree after all. But, hey, study breaks are extremely effective. 🙂

They were right when they said you’d find the friends that you would have for the rest of your life. 

For some reason, the friendships that are made in college are immediately deeper and more real. Maybe it’s because you aren’t forced to see those people at school everyday, and it really takes effort on both sides for a great friendship. Maybe it’s because we all came in on the same boat, in a new place, being on our own for the first time. All I know is that these are the people I want to be in my wedding some day.

Your faith and personal relationship with God is vital.

You don’t have your family to make you go to church or bible study anymore. It is completely up to you and it’s your job to make that happen. Talking to God daily and digging into His truths is the only thing that has gotten me through the ups and the downs of life in college. It’s a challenge sometimes putting your faith first, but this is where it starts. This is what will reflect what your relationship with the Lord will be like for the rest of your life.

You will make mistakes, and you will be forgiven.

You aren’t perfect. And I know that phone call home to tell your parents of the fender bender you just got in is hard and you want so badly to be able to handle it all on your own because you’re supposed to be an “adult”, but they WILL understand. It’s OKAY to make mistakes, you’re only human. Don’t be so hard on yourself. And always remember who the ultimate forgiver is of the mistakes and sins we make.

No matter how much you say it, you will miss your parents. 

Life in college is fun and busy but you will find yourself calling up your mom and dad way more often than you ever said you would. When you’re eating cafeteria food for the 4th time this week and you want so badly to have some of your mom’s homemade cookies. When you are stressed out to the max and all you want is to hear one of your dad’s infamous belly-laugh jokes. Your parents are the ones that understand you better than you even understand yourself. Go ahead and call them, they appreciate it more than you do.

Relationships are important. 

Friendships have no need to be superficial anymore. Friendships are meant to be profound and real. Don’t be afraid to ask those deep questions, that is where you really get to know someone. The conversations aren’t always the easiest, but to hear someone speak about their passions or how they think God is working in their life or how they are struggling is truly beautiful, and shows their true self. The people that push you deeper are the ones you want to keep in your life.

Take risks.

Your comfort zone is not where you need to be. Now, I’m not saying go out and do something stupid, but don’t be afraid to do something new. Get up at 5 in the morning to go watch the sunrise. Hang out with that girl in your calculus class that you thought was kinda cute. Don’t just wait for life to pass you by, because it passes by too quickly. I think I’ve realized that sometimes you have to do the spontaneous things because that keeps life exciting, and you never know what might become of it.

Don’t get too caught up in the “let it be” and get more into the “go make it happen”.

Too many times people tell me about hopes and dreams and finish with “but if it’s meant to be it’ll be”. Why I’m a firm believer in that statement, I feel there are times when you can’t just wait around, you have to go do something about it before it’s too late. The worst thing that can happen is that it doesn’t happen in that time, and hey if that’s so, God has something much bigger planned for you anyways. You’ll never know unless you give it a try and just go for it.

 Appreciate every. single. moment.

Sadly, at the beginning of this semester, I had two people I know pass away in car accidents. One who was a few years older than me, and one that was my age. This was tragic. Two girls that had their life cut short. This taught me that we aren’t promised tomorrow, the only thing we are promised is the now so why not live in it. Don’t be on your phone the whole time and just enjoy the moment, that is where you really learn to appreciate all of the little things that we take advantage of. I have learned that life is too short to not be happy and to show love to everyone you know, because you don’t always know what they are going through. Appreciate, and be grateful, for God has blessed us immensely.

You don’t have control of your life, and THAT IS OKAY. 

A good friend of mine and I got into this conversation just the other day. You  may think so, but in all honestly none of us have our whole lives figured out. It is extremely difficult to literally let go of everything and just put all of your trust in God’s hands. It’s terrifying actually. And it’s a fact that we are all control freaks when it comes to our lives, we have an idea of exactly how we want everything to go. Well, sometimes it doesn’t work out that way, and you just have to roll with the punches and accept that the Lord has an immaculate plan for your life better than anything that you could ever imagine. It is nice to take peace in the fact that things have always worked out just the way that they should have.

College has been one of the best experiences I’ve ever had, and if this is just the first semester, I can’t wait to see the things God teaches me in the next 7. I am so thankful for the friendships I have made and the opportunities I’ve had. Even though it’s hard, I can’t help but come out of it with a smile. I have been so blessed, second semester: bring it on!